Times of reflection are the best way to start a week.
Ask yourself this question: How far have you come in your own personal healing journey?
The pilgrimage of healing is a ship that sails through the course of this life. Not until we reach the Kingdom of Heaven will our healing be complete. I know not everyone believes this — some don’t think they need healing at all — they’ve arrived. Well, I’m not one of them.
I found an old journey that had my personal healing notes from 2009. It read,
“Just spent four days with my son-in-law, my daugther and their baby son. Oh my . . . what dreams. . . what beauty. I had that all once myself one time — I thought.
But there was no caring husband. No happily ever after.
My babies — oh my girls. The most beautiful babies anywhere around me. Both of them.
Then — a fucking ugly man takes my kids into his own desires.”
I had learned that my children had been terribly abused by their father. As I read my own handwriting, tears began to again stream down my face. The pain was intolerable — then. Today, I’m sailing free. I cannot change the past but I can certainly dictate where my future will land.
I’m safe. My children are safe. I now know what battles I will fight and what battles I will never waste my time on again.
Looking at another person’s worth as more valuable than my own — I’ll never do again. Codependency is looking at another person and never looking at yourself. That is a battle I don’t fight any more. I hold myself in full accountability, in full esteem, and I have found my worth.
What’s more, I know what I am called to do.
Please see yourself today. Don’t fight battles that have no meaning. Do not look at abusers and believe you can fix them. It’s not your calling.
God is only calling your name. When you stand before Him one day he will not be asking you what someone else did in life — he will be asking you what you did. Make sure it’s worth while. And, make sure you remember why he came to earth in the first place. He was looking for your broken heart!
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